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For a long time, I sat behind a black, metal desk at a suburban Chevy dealership in my capacity as the office manager. I walked in through the sliding glass doors at 9:02AM every day—those two minutes were about all the resistance that I could muster—put my purse down by my desk and plastered a smile on my face. 9 hours later, I would pick up my purse, walk out the same glass doors and be fully drained. I’d drive home and wonder how and why I kept doing that to myself.

The truth is that there wasn’t any good reason. On the weekends, I’d drive to a nearby state park to sit and watch nature in action. Sometimes this meant I’d watch the trees sway in the breeze. Sometimes this meant I’d watch two squirrels tussle over a nut of some sort. And, if I got really lucky, it meant that I’d see a fox peek out from its den or watch a beaver gnawing on a sapling. Those moments made me feel so alive; like I could accomplish anything… and then I’d go back to work and lose that feeling.

About the only thing I did for myself was to make jewelry in what little spare time I had. That ended up being my salvation. Somewhere along the line, I took a chance, quit my job and began selling jewelry full time. I now don’t have to fake smiles! They’re here naturally!

After much therapy and even more journaling, I have come to realize that I value freedom more than anything else. The freedom to try things, experiment with things and do really whatever it is that I want to do or that I see value in. I feel like I was suppressed with my “career” and now that I’ve gotten away from that I’ve begun to see the true light of life.

One of the areas that I think I let go for entirely too long was in the sexual realm. How much effort can you put into feeling sexy and going out when you come home and feel emotionally drained. Getting my sexy back is really my favorite part of my new life. I am old enough at 47 that I know what I like and don’t like and can comfortably communicate that with my partner(s). If it’s legal and feels good, let’s go! I have found that I do have a special ability to be in control. It’s not something that I seek out, but I have been told by lovers that I do a good job with it. On one hand, this is kind of like being informed that you have beautiful elbows—great… but it’s not something that I’ve ever aspired to achieve—but on the other hand, it’s good to know; I do like being accomplished at things.

I am presently single and not dating anyone, I’m not super interested in just hooking up with people (anymore) and figured if there ever were a time to try a site like this, this would be it. So here I am! Please reach out to me with any questions or thoughts you have, I will be only too happy to respond!

I apologize for the blurry/out of focus nature of the photos. I wasn’t 100% comfortable with my face being completely visible, so I went with these. This is me and I had a friend take these last year in my favorite nearby glen.