It's one thing to feel compelled to pay. It's another thing
to be made to feel obsessed. Still another to be ignored
despite my obsession.
I've been a financial submissive to Ms. Stern for a long
time, but until recently I always felt like I was in
control. This is very hot, but very scary.
I'm so obsessed with Ms. Stern that all I can think about is
the possibility of a few words from her.
I am so pathetic and worthless that I can't even hold Ms.
Stern's attention by paying.
Ms. Stern is right. I'm a freak, who will keep doing the
same messed up shit, time after time. I'm just another
loser who needs Ms. Stern to give me meaning.
Her enjoyment, my compulsion.
Mmmm, need to talk to my deepest love. My head is spinning
from wrapping myself in her delirious MP3's. The only way
up or down is through her.
I start polite and eager to please. I finish mindfucked and
dependent. I start intelligent and self-restrained. I
finish weak and shaking with addiction. I start optimistic
and generous. I finish crushed and oppressed.
Anyone who can withhold his heart and mind from Domina Stern
must lack both.